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Demi Lovato has revealed she found it ‘difficult’ reliving the trauma of her near-fatal overdose in her candid YouTube documentary series Dancing With The Devil.

Speaking about her series in an interview on Lorraine, the musician, 28, said it’s ‘never easy’ discussing her ordeal after two years in recovery, but she’s ‘grateful’ to music for giving her an avenue to express herself during her struggles.

It comes after Demi revealed she’s been struggling with ‘survivors guilt’ after rapper DMX was hospitalised following an overdose on Saturday

Candid: Demi Lovato has revealed she found it 'difficult' reliving the trauma of her near-fatal overdose in her candid YouTube documentary series Dancing With The Devil

Candid: Demi Lovato has revealed she found it 'difficult' reliving the trauma of her near-fatal overdose in her candid YouTube documentary series Dancing With The Devil

Candid: Demi Lovato has revealed she found it ‘difficult’ reliving the trauma of her near-fatal overdose in her candid YouTube documentary series Dancing With The Devil

During the interview with Ross King, Demi discussed reliving her 2018 overdose on  heroin and fentanyl which left her hospitalised, having spent the past two years getting clean,

She said: ‘It’s never easy talking about traumas or things that you’ve gone through, but I’m so grateful for music because music gave me something to live for at times in my life when I didn’t feel like I had much to live for.

‘Making it was difficult, watching it was difficult but living it was the most difficult but it was important that I shared my story.’

Challenges: Speaking about her series in an interview on Lorraine, the musician, 28, said it's 'never easy' discussing her ordeal after two years in recovery

Challenges: Speaking about her series in an interview on Lorraine, the musician, 28, said it's 'never easy' discussing her ordeal after two years in recovery

Challenges: Speaking about her series in an interview on Lorraine, the musician, 28, said it’s ‘never easy’ discussing her ordeal after two years in recovery

Open: Demi discussed her documentary during an interview with Ross King on ITV's Lorraine

Open: Demi discussed her documentary during an interview with Ross King on ITV's Lorraine

Open: Demi discussed her documentary during an interview with Ross King on ITV’s Lorraine

Speaking out: She said: 'I'm so grateful for music because music gave me something to live for at times in my life when I didn't feel like I had much to live for'

Speaking out: She said: 'I'm so grateful for music because music gave me something to live for at times in my life when I didn't feel like I had much to live for'

Speaking out: She said: ‘I’m so grateful for music because music gave me something to live for at times in my life when I didn’t feel like I had much to live for’

Asked how she’s doing now, she went on: ‘The goal was never to set out to be ”happy”. 

‘Contentment is what I always strived for and then I started upping the ante a little bit, and I was like, ”Hey, let’s go for happy”.’ 

Demi also discussed her decision to ditch her long hair in favour of a pixie crop, saying: ‘I felt like I was living my life for other people for so long and I’d always wanted to cut my hair and I finally did it.’

After her documentary aired on YouTube, Demi has since released an album titled Dancing With The Devil, which features an appearance with her pal Ariana Grande.

On the mend: Asked how she's doing now, she went on: 'The goal was never to set out to be ''happy''. Contentment is what I always strived for'

On the mend: Asked how she's doing now, she went on: 'The goal was never to set out to be ''happy''. Contentment is what I always strived for'

On the mend: Asked how she’s doing now, she went on: ‘The goal was never to set out to be ”happy”. Contentment is what I always strived for’

It's gone! Demi also discussed her decision to ditch her long hair, saying: 'I felt like I was living my life for other people for so long and I'd always wanted to cut my hair and I finally did it'

It's gone! Demi also discussed her decision to ditch her long hair, saying: 'I felt like I was living my life for other people for so long and I'd always wanted to cut my hair and I finally did it'

It’s gone! Demi also discussed her decision to ditch her long hair, saying: ‘I felt like I was living my life for other people for so long and I’d always wanted to cut my hair and I finally did it’

The hitmaker shared: ‘My friends that I have in my life, most of them aren’t famous and it’s because I love doing normal things with them – like binge watch Netflix. I’ve been binge watching The Walking Dead, Grey’s Anatomy.’

On Wednesday Demi also showed off her incredible physique in a swimsuit video shared to her Instagram Stories.

The recording artist made sure to include an image of her the cover for her new album Dancing with the Devil… The Art of Starting Over in her social media post.

Hello: On Wednesday Demi also showed off her incredibler new album Dancing with the Devil…The Art of Starting Over

Hello: On Wednesday Demi also showed off her incredibler new album Dancing with the Devil…The Art of Starting Over

Confident: On Wednesday Demi also showed off her physique in a video shared to Instagram Stories in which she also promoted her album Dancing with the Devil

Lovato, 28, posed in a high-cut black one-piece for the mirror selfie.

As she shot the busty snap, she posed with one hand with manicured nails tucked under the swimsuit at her hip as she held her phone in her other hand.

The singer, who is sporting a very short hairdo, appeared to be makeup-free.

Wow! The singer, who is sporting a very short hairdo, appeared to be makeup-free

Wow! The singer, who is sporting a very short hairdo, appeared to be makeup-free

Amazing: She posed in a high-cut black one-piece for the mirror selfie

Amazing: She posed in a high-cut black one-piece for the mirror selfie

Social media video: Demi posed in a high-cut black one-piece for the mirror selfie. The singer, who is sporting a very short hairdo, appeared to be makeup-free

Curvy: As she shot the busty snap, she posed with one hand with manicured nails tucked under the swimsuit at her hip as she held her phone in her other hand

Curvy: As she shot the busty snap, she posed with one hand with manicured nails tucked under the swimsuit at her hip as she held her phone in her other hand

Curvy: As she shot the busty snap, she posed with one hand with manicured nails tucked under the swimsuit at her hip as she held her phone in her other hand

The four-part documentary about the former Disney Channel star titled Dancing With The Devil premiered in March and included previously unknown details about her near-fatal drug overdose in 2018. 

Demi told TMZ this week that she’s been emotionally jolted by rapper DMX’s drug overdose, which has left him fighting for his life, adding news of his hospitalisation has left her with ‘survivor’s guilt.’

As of Wednesday night, DMX, 50, whose real name is Earl Simmons, was reported to be on life support at the White Plains Hospital in New York after being admitted there on Friday. 

Trauma: Demi told TMZ this week she's been emotionally jolted by rapper DMX's drug overdose and said the news has given her 'survivor's guilt' following her own 2018 overdose

Trauma: Demi told TMZ this week she's been emotionally jolted by rapper DMX's drug overdose and said the news has given her 'survivor's guilt' following her own 2018 overdose

Trauma: Demi told TMZ this week she’s been emotionally jolted by rapper DMX’s drug overdose and said the news has given her ‘survivor’s guilt’ following her own 2018 overdose

Tragic: As of Wednesday night, DMX, 50, whose real name is Earl Simmons, was reported to be on life support at the White Plains Hospital in New York after being admitted there on Friday

Tragic: As of Wednesday night, DMX, 50, whose real name is Earl Simmons, was reported to be on life support at the White Plains Hospital in New York after being admitted there on Friday

Tragic: As of Wednesday night, DMX, 50, whose real name is Earl Simmons, was reported to be on life support at the White Plains Hospital in New York after being admitted there on Friday 

Speaking to TMZ via video link, the Cool For The Summer songstress admitted: ‘Any time I see someone OD or pass away that’s in the public eye I immediately think ‘that could have been you had you not been putting all this work into the last couple of years of your life’.

Lovato went on: ‘There’s times I’ve felt like feeling survivor’s guilt. You do ask yourself ‘why am I still here, why are others not?’ It’s challenging. I have to realize that every day is a day that someone else doesn’t get.

‘Every day I am here on this earth is a day I count my blessings. It makes me want to live the best life I can possibly have knowing others didn’t get the chance…’  

In addition to her candid documentary, Lovato has also made headlines lately with her revelation that she identifies as ‘pansexual’ and plans on adopting children in the future. 

‘In this moment I want to adopt [children] for sure,’ she explained on The Joe Rogan Experience podcast. ‘I also don’t know if I’m going to end up with a guy, so I can’t really see myself even getting pregnant.’

She continued: ‘I don’t know. I’m so fluid now, and a part of the reason why I am so fluid is because I was super closeted off.’

Her truth: The former Disney Channel star revealed she identifies as 'pansexual' and plans on adopting children in the future during a chat on The Joe Rogan Experience podcast

Her truth: The former Disney Channel star revealed she identifies as 'pansexual' and plans on adopting children in the future during a chat on The Joe Rogan Experience podcast

Her truth: The former Disney Channel star revealed she identifies as ‘pansexual’ and plans on adopting children in the future during a chat on The Joe Rogan Experience podcast

Future goal: 'In this moment I want to adopt [children] for sure,' she told Rogan. 'I also don't know if I'm going to end up with a guy, so I can't really see myself even getting pregnant'

Future goal: 'In this moment I want to adopt [children] for sure,' she told Rogan. 'I also don't know if I'm going to end up with a guy, so I can't really see myself even getting pregnant'

Future goal: ‘In this moment I want to adopt [children] for sure,’ she told Rogan. ‘I also don’t know if I’m going to end up with a guy, so I can’t really see myself even getting pregnant’

To clarify, the $100million dollar podcast host asked Demi to elaborate on her sexual fluidity and whether that means she is pansexual – meaning she is attracted to a person regardless of sexual or gender identity.  

‘What do they call that? ‘Pansexual’?’ Rogan asked. ‘Yeah, pansexual,’ Demi said, quipping: ‘[I like] anything, really.’ 

While reflecting on her sexual identity, Demi told Rogan that she had her sexual awakening watching the kissing scene between Sarah Michelle Gellar and Selma Blair in the 1999 teen drama Cruel Intentions. 

‘[I] felt a lot of shame because growing up in Texas as a Christian, that’s very frowned upon. I shut it down before I even let myself process what I was feeling,’ she said. 

'What do they call that? 'Pansexual'?' Rogan asked. 'Yeah, pansexual,' Demi said, quipping: '[I like] anything, really.'

'What do they call that? 'Pansexual'?' Rogan asked. 'Yeah, pansexual,' Demi said, quipping: '[I like] anything, really.'

'I don't know. I'm so fluid now, and a part of the reason why I am so fluid is because I was super closeted off.'

'I don't know. I'm so fluid now, and a part of the reason why I am so fluid is because I was super closeted off.'

Lovato explained: ‘I don’t know. I’m so fluid now, and a part of the reason why I am so fluid is because I was super closeted off’

Candid: She went on: '[I] felt a lot of shame because growing up in Texas as a Christian, that's very frowned upon. I shut it down before I even let myself process what I was feeling'

Candid: She went on: '[I] felt a lot of shame because growing up in Texas as a Christian, that's very frowned upon. I shut it down before I even let myself process what I was feeling'

Candid: She went on: ‘[I] felt a lot of shame because growing up in Texas as a Christian, that’s very frowned upon. I shut it down before I even let myself process what I was feeling’

Revelations: 'I totally thought I'd be married, maybe pregnant right now, and that's not the case... I know that my life is not going according to my plan,' she told Rogan

Revelations: 'I totally thought I'd be married, maybe pregnant right now, and that's not the case... I know that my life is not going according to my plan,' she told Rogan

Revelations: ‘I totally thought I’d be married, maybe pregnant right now, and that’s not the case… I know that my life is not going according to my plan,’ she told Rogan

Coming to terms with her identity: Lovato told Entertainment Weekly : 'Regardless if drama is happening or not, I am too gay to marry a man right now'

Coming to terms with her identity: Lovato told Entertainment Weekly : 'Regardless if drama is happening or not, I am too gay to marry a man right now'

Coming to terms with her identity: Lovato told Entertainment Weekly : ‘Regardless if drama is happening or not, I am too gay to marry a man right now’ 

This post first appeared on dailymail.co.uk

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